Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Ohh goodness... *sigh*

Well, I am a successful woman. I have convinced myself that I don't like *him* anymore. And that is a pretty big stinkin' step. I know, I rock. You don't have to tell me. Haha, I'm just messing. But seriously, I told y'all I could do it... And I did. I don't think I like *him* anymore... We'll see, I suppose. But, even if I don't, I'm still really shy/embarrassed around *him*, so don't expect to see me hanging out with *him* anytime soon.

Anyhoo, I've completely exhausted every ounce of energy my body possibly possessed, and then some. I have driven myself so far past the point of exhaustion and extreme stress that it's not even cool. I rarely eat, and when I do, I don't eat very much at all. I don't get much sleep, and it's not even good sleep. I work, I clean, I teach, I volunteer... I do anything that's asked of me, no matter what. Even though it usually means that I'm going to be tired and stressed... I've gotten better at handling it. I mean, I really should be sleeping right now, but I'm so stressed, I know I can't sleep. However, not sleeping merely adds to the stress. Basically, it's a never ending cycle... Ohhh well. I guess I'll get rested up one day... Maybe.

So, I decided I REALLY want to go to the lake. Like, really, really badly. I would prefer to go with some friends, but as I don't have any friends, I guess I'll just have to wait until bootcamp... Or I could go by myself, like a nerd... Joy. I think I'll just wait 'til bootcamp. Then I'll be with my... "friends". I guess that's what they're called... I don't know.. They don't talk to me anymore, even if I try to talk to them first... I think I annoy them, but it's okay, I guess... I'm used to it now...

But enough whining.... I decided I'm truly, madly, deeply in love... with country music. It's just.. amazing. It helps me chill out and relax a bit. It's seriously one of my great loves. Dr Pepper and coffee are two of my other great loves... As far as people go, I don't think I have any great loves... Except my family, but whatever... I mean, boys-- I can do without them... I think. Haha. We'll find out eventually! But for now, I should probably go... Love y'all! God bless!


  1. :( :( :(....
    I'm not your friend. I thought we were friends. AND I've also totaly been dying to go to the lake...we would just have to find a lake to go to...and a pretty Saturday to go on. I'M JUST SAYIN'. I love you Caitlin. :D

  2. You ARE my friend. We just don't ever talk, except via blogging.

    And we'd have to find a pretty Saturday, when neither of us are working/volunteering/doing something else... And maybe a few other people... And a lake...

    And I personally need some board shorts... ASAP.

    Also, I love you too! :)