"She's so sweet with her get back stare..."

"Big black boots, long brown hair, she's so sweet with her get back stare..." --Are You Gonna Be My Girl by Jet



Sorry it's been a little while since my last post... I've been a little busy. Anyway, I just have to start off by explaining how my day was... Firstly, I woke up late, then had all whiny kids at work. When I finally got to go on my extended lunch break, my car broke down just as I was about to come back to work (luckily, I always leave early and so I had time to fix my car... and I did know how to fix it... I'm just that good). I had more whiny kids to deal with. I almost lost my cool several times. You know what makes all that kinda weird? I'm still in a really good mood. I mean, I'm starving, sore, and worn out, but I'm happy. I totally don't even know why, but I am.



Oh man... This is actually not too slammed of a week. Last week was totally killer. I mean, it doesn't help that I've been halfway sick for-freaking-ever now... Just saying. But I got to hang out with Seth on Saturday... That was cool. And his DAD was the one that said I could come over... I think his dad actually likes me. I hope so! I love his whole family! Well, all of his family that I know, at least... Anyways...


So I'm officially CPR certified! Yup, I took the 3 1/2 hour long course on Thursday... It was so easy!! So now if anyone starts dying, I'll be able to help, which I hope I never have to do... I honestly hope that whole class was a total waste of my time. Although it would be cool to save someone's life, if I failed, I wouldn't be able to live with myself. So, I really don't want to use my CPR. Of course, if I needed to, I totally would. In a heartbeat. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't help someone who was dying, either. Basically, I would save someone if I had to...


Anyways... I'm going to just relax a bit now, and talk to Seth on the phone... listen to music, maybe shop online a bit more... Goodnight, y'all, and God bless.

Uh ohhh.....

Houston, we have a.. complication. I guess that's what it would be called.. I think I may actually be starting to like Seth... Uhh ohh.... He's just... soooo..... everything I ever asked for. He even chases me. He lets me be alone when I'm upset until he can see that I've calmed down and I'm ready to talk, and then he comes and talks to me... He lets me talk things out until they make sense... And he's so caring. He doesn't have a job, but when he has money, he buys me Dr Pepper. He knows how I like my coffee, and will make it for me without being asked. He calls me beautiful, and means it. He really looks out for me and understands me. I know the age thing is an issue, and so does he. We both know I'm not ready to date, and he said he isn't allowing himself to date until he can drive (so he can drive his girl around and take care of her, not the other way around). He knows that I'm a flight risk. He knows I'm afraid of love. He knows that I'm a nutcase. And he still loves me. He says (that being the operative word here) that he loves me, and has for two and a half years. Anyone that can love me for that long is worthy of at least being considered. I'm just throwing that out there. Oh, and he's willing to wait until I'm ready. He even knows that it could take a long time. I have to get right with myself and God before I can be in a relationship, and he's willing to wait that long. To me, that says a lot about a guy's character. And he's very mature for his age... Plus, his family ROCKS!!! His mom is one of my best friends, and as much as Ethan says he hates me, he opens up to me about a lot of stuff. His dad even likes me! The Hicks invite me on more family outings than my own family does! Which reminds me... I found out Monday that my family was going to Magic Springs... and I wasn't invited. Instead, Meg's boyfriend got my ticket. Well, now my dad has to work, so I'm magically invited. Too bad I DESPISE theme parks. I hate them and my family knows that. Besides, I halfway made plans. I mean, I haven't told my parents about my plans, but I made them. Besides, they weren't going to invite me anyway. I think I'm just going to have to tell them I don't want to go. I really hate theme parks. I don't do anything at them, they're crowded, they're nasty, and I get soooo bored. Basically, when I go, I just hold everyone's stuff while they go on rides and stuff. I think I'll save myself the stress and frustration and just not go. I just hope I don't hurt anyone's feelings. Anyways, I'm going to go relax a bit before I have to go to work. Love you all, and God bless!

Dude...

So the party was great. Just thought you should all know that. However, all of us "grown up kids" are... hormonal, to put it lightly... so we were all sitting there eating icing and chocolate and talking about dating, when I piped up: "You know, I don't expect a perfect fairy tale... I don't need, or even want, a prince on a white horse... I'd rather have a redneck in a muddy truck" to which Steph replies "You can borrow Thomas if you want. I don't mind if you guys hang out." Thanks Steph, but you can keep your man. I'm kinda looking for my very own. Nice of you to offer, though. It just made me laugh a little.



Which reminds me, I found a quote that made me smile... a lot. It's great:

Roses aren't good symbols of love. I mean, roses only last a few weeks, and that's only if you put them in water. And they really only exist to be pretty. That's like saying "My love for you is transitory and based solely on appearance. But a potato... Potatoes last forever. In fact, not only will they not rot, they actually grow stuff if you leave them. That part alone makes it a good symbol. But there's more- there are so many ways to enjoy a potato. You can even make a battery with it. And that's like saying "I have many ways in which I show my love for you." And potatoes may be ugly, but they're still awesome, and that's like saying "It doesn't matter at all what you look like, I'll still love you."


Doesn't that freakin' rock?! I totally agree. Of course, I have a strange view of love. The Avett Brothers also said it well in their song, Love Like The Movies: "So you want to be in love like the movies? Well in the movies, they're not in love at all. With a twinkle in their eye, they're just saying their lines, so we can't be in love like the movies." The whole song is so awesome. I love it. It's soooo true though. Everyone expects love to be just like a movie. Yeah... that ain't happenin'. Sorry, girls. I don't want it to be though... It would be predictable, boring, and stupid. I want spontaneous, fun, and challenging. How bad would it suck if you knew exactly how it was going to go down? I mean, I think that's the cause of a lot of divorces. Yeah, a ton are because people got married before they were ready, but I think another problem is that people get bored. You can't keep romance alive if you know what to expect. Of course, this is coming from a single gal, but still... I think I got a pretty good handle on this one....Correct me if I'm wrong, though. Even if it means there will be fights, I don't want a boring, safe romance. I'm not safe with anything else I do in life, so why should I be boring and safe in love? That just wouldn't make sense. And, yeah, there's a greater chance I'll get hurt. But when I find the guy I'm supposed to be with, it'll be a basquillion times better for it. I just know it.



I'll get down off of my soapbox now... Haha. Nah, really I just need to go clean up my room so I can go to bed... Otherwise I shan't be up in time for church... And that would be sooo bad. Good night, and God bless!