Goooood moooorrrrningggg!

Apparently, if one has a migraine and falls asleep at 7, one will wake up at 5, still dressed from the day before wondering why she is even awake. I discovered that this morning. However, the migraine was gone and I now have plenty of time to take a loooong (like 30 whole minutes!) shower and even do some laundry before work! I just have this sensation that today will be a pleasant one (I gotta feelin', ooh, that tonight's gonna be a good night). I don't know why, since Seth isn't too happy with me... But, honestly, if he's gonna act like he has been, then I can't really care. So what that I have a new friend who's a cute guy? That's my choice. Chris (my new friend) is really nice to me. And he's also a VERY talented pianist/singer. Anyway, random thought! I got three temporary tattoos yesterday... One is a glow in the dark really cute teddy bear holding a chainsaw with blood on it (on my side), one is a gold rose (on my wrist), and one is a rose/bird design that says "love forever" (on my hip)... I know, I'm weird... This morning I also got a really strong desire to bake a cake... I'll have to see if my my momma wants me to make Bo's birthday cake. I could have some real fun with a rockstar cake for Bo! I'm just so full of random thoughts this morning... Jeez, if this is what I'm like when I get a full night's sleep, then I need to go back to not sleeping! I'm so hungry... I didn't eat last night, so all I ate yesterday was ONE PLATE at the Chinese buffet with a few bites of ice cream for dinner.. I really think I'm losing weight from being sick and having migraines all the time. Ha! While everyone else diets and works out to get ready for Spring Break, I just "magically" lose weight... It's great! I just wish I weren't single... I know I'm being stupid and selfish, but I just kinda want someone to first of all care when I'm sick, and secondly, maybe even take care of me a bit! But I know that won't happen... At least if I were dating, I would have someone to take care of... Oh well, in due time... I know how it works. Oh! So, yesterday at work, this kid told me I could be a rockstar. I asked him why he said that, since he's notorious for lying (every day he tells me I'm hot/cute/pretty and crap like that). He said "Because you have a pretty voice, Ms. Caitlin." He's like 11, so obviously I don't trust his musical opinion, but it was still funny. Anyway, I love you guys, but I'm gonna start getting ready... Love you all so much! God bless you, and have a really great day!



"My life is not my own, to You I belong, I give myself, I give myself to You. I give myself away, I give myself away so You can use me." --Israel Houghton

"Calling everybody, step in the lights and show a little love if you feel alright!"

KINGSDOWN ROCKS!! That's just in case you didn't already know that. I saw them tonight, and they're awesome!! Today was just a good day... after several days of migraines/sickness, today I didn't have one, plus the kids at work were pretty good, and I got to see Kingsdown! Taught some younger kiddos how to headbang/air guitar... Got them going hardcore with me! It was SO much fun! But now comes the work and general busyness... But it's okay... I'll live. Tomorrow, I have to be at the church at 8 to help set up for the Bible Bee Chili Cook Off and later for Elevation Renovations (yeah, I just made that name up...). Then MAYBE go see Kingsdown at the Rev Room... Except they don't go on until like 10-10:30ish... And it's daylight saving time tomorrow night... And Sunday is, well, a Sunday... But if all else fails, I'll invest in some 5 hour energy.. But anyway, I REALLY need a shower... Soooo badly. I'm gonna go take a quick one, and then hit the hay... I love you guys a whole, whole lot! I really do!! Have a good night, and may God bless you with all the blessings He has for you!

Slammed. Stressed. Overworked. Unappreciated. Unloved. Lonely. These are all really good ways of describing how I've felt these past few days... I know at least 80% of it is hormone related, but that means that 20% is my legitimate feeling. That SUCKS. I write it off as just hormones, but I know it's not... I don't know if I have high expectations for how I should be treated, or what, but I just feel really unimportant. I don't need to be the center of attention, but when I'm at a volunteer dinner with a TON of people I work with EVERY SINGLE SUNDAY and only a few people talk to me and only Isaac P. (a KID) is actually excited to see me, I just feel like no one even notices me. It's like the only time I'm noticed is when I'm needed. I guess it's good that people "need" me, but I also know that I'm replaceable. Easily. I don't even do that much. Realistically, I don't do anything. It looks like I do, but I really don't do anything important. I don't make a difference in anything at all. It just sucks knowing I'm not really important or needed... heck, half the time I don't even feel wanted. Maybe it really is just the hormones talking and I need to stop whining and just be grateful for what I have... I'll try that. I'm sorry for being whiny. Anyway, I love you all (all none of you that read this...). Goodnight and God bless!

"Slight figure of speech, I cut my chest wide open..." :)

So... I'm going to go see The Avett Brothers in April!! Unfortunately, I'll be going alone. At first, it was going to be Michael, Seth H., Ethan, Megan, Seth J., and me. Then Seth J. got a job that would prevent him from going. Then Meg found out that it wouldn't even start until 9, so she can't go. Then I found out that Seth and Ethan can't go, and I guess Michael can't either... Even if he can, that could be awkward... So, I'm alone, but I get to see them! I love The Avett Brothers. They make me smile! I'm just really super excited! The only downside, other than being alone (which, really, is becoming quite normal for me), is that I'll be up super late, and it's on a Saturday... I'm just going to have to buy some 5 hour energy shots to keep on hand Sunday at church. Haha, that would be great. And I'm old enough to buy them at Wal-Mart. So, at least that would be easy. Anyway, I have work in a little while, so I should probably go get ready. Love you guys! God bless!

Dear Abby... thank you.

I've been slightly... upset... today and yesterday about a certain boy who most likely doesn't even want to date me right now.. But I was talking to my friend Abby, and she said he needs me. I was caught a little off guard and asked her why HE needs ME... Her response? "Because you're YOU. You're a beautiful, headstrong, outspoken, and multifaceted woman who breathes fire and ice. Any man would be lucky to even stand in your presence." Oh my gosh. I was not expecting that response. But she is one of those people that won't lie to me, and hasn't known me long enough to be afraid to hurt me, but has known me long enough to know who I am. So I pretty much believe her about most things. That, and most of that was just true. I would never call myself beautiful or say any man would be lucky to be in my presence, but the rest of it I would say about myself... I never thought they were good qualities, but they were qualities I knew I possessed... So now I just sit back and wait... That boy can either decide he wants me enough to pursue me, or he can decide he's not interested. Either way, I know I will be okay.

On a slightly different note, I have decided to watch all the sermons in the GFC/NLC archives... I watched 4 this morning. I also listened to a ton of music (like Desert Song by Hillsong... it rocks my world). I also decided to take up meditating... I need to learn to sit down, shut up, and listen to God. I'm like the little kid running around chanting "Daddy, daddy, daddy!!" at the top of my lungs while God is saying "Caitlin, if you'll just sit down and be quiet, I'll give you the things I have for you." But I'm that frustrating child who just won't be still and quiet. I have to learn to control my "ADD" so that I can receive the things God has for me. I know this, and I accept this as true, and I am now working to better myself in this area. I'm excited about where my life is going to go. I also decided I need to live on purpose. I don't know my calling, and I don't know God's plan for me, but I can still live on purpose. I'm ready and willing. "If You can use anything, Lord, You can use me..."

Anyway, I have to take my car in to the body shop pretty early tomorrow, so I'm going to get ready for bed. I love you all, and I'm praying for you! Goodnight, and God bless.

Tomorrow...

Tomorrow is.... going to be good. It better be. I will (FINALLY) be able to drink Dr Pepper again!! Also, I'll be 19... And birthdays at work mean cookie cake!! Also, I have to start baking a cake... Sometime this weekend, I'm going out to eat with my family... I have no clue where. I'm supposed to pick... but I suck at that... Sunday I have to talk to Seth... Here's the dealio... My parents decided I am allowed to date him, so I talked to his parents and they're cool with it too. They just want me to wait until he's recovered from having his wisdom teeth removed (that's on Thursday). I just hope he still likes me. From the way he's been talking, I don't think he does... which breaks my heart. Oh well. Better my heart than his, I suppose. That is what I asked God for.


Anyway, new stuff I want for my birthday:

CDs or tees from the following (however, I'm picky about tees...):

• The White Stripes
• The Black Keys
• The Raconteurs
• The Fratellis
• Cold War Kids
• Modest Mouse
• Queens Of The Stone Age

Or any other alternative rock stuff I've been listening to here lately... it makes me happy. Which is pretty cool, since not much can make me happy recently. Music touches my soul in a way that nothing else can. Except maybe love. But since I ain't feelin' much of that lately.... so I turn to music. And prayer... obviously.


I miss Seth. He says he still wants to be my friend, but he doesn't. He avoids me, doesn't respond to texts, and rarely speaks to me unless he has to. That boy has to hate me... I'm sure of it. I just wish he didn't... Oh well... If it were meant to be, it would work... So I guess it's not... Which is for the better, I'm sure. He deserves someone much nicer than I am... I just wish he would at least be my friend. We went from talking all day, every day, to almost never speaking. This just sucks. But I'll stop whining now.


I do believe I need a long, hot shower to wash the stress off... Therefore, goodnight and God bless you guys. If you think about it, pray for me. I'm really past my breaking point. I don't know how I'm holding up. The only explanation I can come up with is that God is holding me together. Oh well... Later, y'all.

"Keep on the sunny side, always on the sunny side..."

Okay, I will make this short and sweet. Within the past two days I have:

-had a garage door break... at my uncle's house... while I was housesitting.
-had to sit through a five hour workshop... it was boring.
-had to sit through said workshop and only eat a few mini muffins and a few pieces of celery... until 8 PM.
-had to clean up dog pee off of the bed I'm sleeping in.
-had a guy hit on me... and then had my dad threaten to take his little booty down! (I'll get to that story in a second.)


Good things in the past two days:

-found a king sized Hershey bar in my backseat... no, it's not old. I just forgot I had it.
-been brought a mocha frappuccino by my awesome little sister.
-went to a concert... Dash Rip Rock and Cowboy Mouth at the Rev Room... good stuff!
-had a bit of (possibly) good news from the 'rents... (y'all have to wait to find that one out... just in case).


Alright, STORY TIME!! Gather round everyone, it's time for the good story. Whilst at the Rev Room, rocking out to Cowboy Mouth, this guy walked up and asked me my name. I told him mine, he told me his, and shook my hand. He was not cute and very weird, but I didn't think anything of it... until the lead singer started pulling people from the second level down to the floor. He pulled me down, and creepy guy (I don't remember his name) followed me. I blew it off as him just wanting to be on the floor or something.Until I stepped up onto this little raised area on the floor level. He followed me up there! And there wasn't enough room for him! I was getting pretty creeped out (and squished), so I pushed my way back up to the second level to stand by my daddy. Well, wouldn't you know it, Mr. Creepy McStalkerpants was soon right back up there trying to stand by me. When I inched closer to my daddy, Creepster looked at my dad and said "What's your name?" My daddy grabbed me and moved me in between Seth J and himself and told the creep (in... slightly different words) "Back off.. that's my daughter. I will take you down." I didn't see that dude for the rest of the night. It was cool. My dad is a rockstar. I was about ready to tell that guy off myself. Or punch him in the face... one of the two. It was fun.


Also, just about any workshop with handouts, which include quizzes/activities that WON'T be taken up, can become fun. Just be sarcastic and rude (or just be yourself, as it is in my case), and you will come up with some great stuff. Also, be sure to play with the mini beach ball you may win as a door prize... during the lessons. I had fun with this type of stuff.. I'm such a trouble maker. But hey, when the boss is bored, you can get away with anything... Good stuff. Well, since I got all of 4 1/2 hours of sleep last night and I have to be at church at 7 tomorrow morning, I'm going to turn in for the night... Goodnight, y'all. God bless!